Experiments in Vitality documents the process of tinkering with reality. I try things, sometimes because my life needs to change. Sometimes I am just curious. I wonder what will happen if...
Experimenting is an act taken to honor aliveness, to boost creativity and to cooperate with the vast magical potential of the universe. That creates vitality. It is not questing for perfection, but enjoying the motion of constant discovery.
Experiments is a place to share our stories of trial and error. From playing and just trying new stuff, we find meaning. Share what you are learning.
I had been seeking vitality for a long time. My desire for an adventurous, meaningful life--one I never had the energy for--often left me in despair. Even after I got some essential physical care figured out, I couldn't face the uphill climb of figuring out what to do with my life.
I was looking for a pure, singular answer that would meet all my needs. If I could just find the right job, THEN I would be happy. You're probably not surprised to hear that this "perfect answer" approach didn't pan out.
Things began to change when I started Hakomi therapy training and learned about having "an experimental attitude." No longer was I constantly "failing at life." I was simply experimenting and learning from the results.
This experimentation went into high gear after hearing Elizabeth Gilbert speak on creative living. On her advice, I began The Artist's Way. Suddenly, I was living a whole different way. Instead of hiding behind nights of Netflix and days in bed, I went to art galleries, got dressed up in my favorite clothes for no reason, and went swimming on random weekday mornings. I also allowed myself to try Prozac, something I had completely resisted for years.
One day, I was listening to Elizabeth Gilbert talk about creating things on her "Magic Lessons" podcast. She said, "It doesn't have to be perfect. It just has to be in motion. And that, of course, is the definition of vitality."
Everything inside of me stood up and said YES. This makes sense: I don't have to find one perfect thing to feel happy. I just need to be in motion, experimenting.
And finally, I feel alive.